Trigger warning: death, loss, grief
I’m not sure, to be honest. I’ve experienced a tragedy so deep that it’s breaking my heart. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever written.
Last night I lost my husband in an accident. Eight years married and 12 years together total ended just like that. It’s been so tough to process. Overnight I became a widow and a single mom. Heaven has gained an angel and he’s watching over me and Lana. I miss him so much.
I canceled my scheduled posts for the month. I’ll re-schedule them I feel ready. Right now I am in so much pain. I feel like I am in the eye of a tornado but everywhere is foggy.
Eat, Play, Live 
I w[ll be holding you in my heart. Take care of yourself.
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So sorry to hear about your loss, Julie. Sending you best wishes and lots of love. May you find strength during this time. Take care ❤
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Oh, Julie, so sorry for this terrible loss. Be strong!
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Oh Julie, my heart is broken for you and Lana. Please take care and give yourself the time you need to grieve. I will keep you and your daughter in my prayers.
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Oh I am so so sorry to read this! My heart is breaking for you and your loss. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
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I’m so sorry for loss, will keep you in my thoughts. Take care.
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Julie, I’m so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself. Sending you best wishes and strength.
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I am very sorry for your loss. So heartbreaking.
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I’m so sorry for your loss. Keeping you and your family in my heart
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I will pray for you as you mourn. It’s a terrible loss.
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My deepest condolences for your loss. I have been married for 6 years and can hardly comprehend the pain you must be enduring. This is one of my most dreaded fears – losing my beloved spouse. You are facing this with such strength and courage, and it is admirable that you wrote this blog post after everything that has happened. 🦋
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Thank you, Hilary. I just needed this out as soon as it was fresh. I just didn’t see the point in waiting because afterward there’s the funeral that has to happen. I needed my thoughts candid as possible — no matter how “ugly” there are. It is the most awful experience.
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Your thoughts are not “ugly” at all. Your posts are raw and vulnerable. I’ve been reading and re-reading your recent ones… been thinking of you and Lana. You’re incredibly strong and I think blogging is a really good outlet to write out your thoughts and feelings ✍️ The blogging community is a good, safe place for that 🦋
Tbh I don’t understand why these terrible things happen to good people. There’s so much I don’t understand about the universe and life.
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I saw your post on instagram, and I a so sorry Julie. There’s no words for this type of loss. ❤
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So sorry to hear of your loss. My prayers are with you
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Oh, I am so sorry to read this. I’m sending you thoughts, prayers for all you will need to go forward.
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So sorry for your loss.. 😞
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Please accept our condolences. Take care, you and Lana.
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Dearest Julie and Lana,
I’m so sorry I missed your news and am backtracking now. LIke everyone else here, I send you my heartfelt condolences. So hard when you had no warning. You are in my prayers and in my heart.
Love,
Rowena
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That’s okay, Rowena. I am also backtracking on comments. This weekend feels like it’s the first weekend I get to review and engage with the comments and blogs.
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Dear, dear Julie, I just read coffee share without knowing what happened. Accidents are so much harder to handle than long illnesses. I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you.
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